Archive for February, 2015

Allegedly Impending Death Part #5

February 22, 2015

This is just a short post to share how I know that I am always in God’s presence. I first noticed it when someone called me on January 21, stating that God had told Him to call me. It was during a time of the day when I could talk and it was the day on which I was told that about the inoperable tumor inside me, and it was a person to whom I wanted to talk about it. But people claim that God told them things all of the time… that doesn’t mean that God really told them anything. They may be just trying to sound spiritual.

The unusual thing is that I have had hiccups at least three (3) times recently. Hiccups are painful for me because of the large tumor(s) inside of me. When my wife prays for the hiccups to stop, they stop and I don’t hiccup any more for at least a day. One (1) of these instances was just a couple of minutes ago. This indicates that God is paying close attention to my situation.

I asked Amber to pray for the tumors to go away, and she complied, but the tumor(s) still seem to be inside of me. Hopefully, God will destroy the tumors soon, but at a time that is even more glorious for Himself! In the meantime, please glorify God for being the Lord over hiccups.


Allegedly Impending Death Part #4

February 21, 2015

Some time has passed by now, since I came up with an answer to the “why” question regarding the tumors that are threatening to kill me from within. Maybe two (2) months ago, my wife and I were unhappy with ourselves because of the way that we were using our time. We enjoyed our respective selves and each other a lot, but we wasted time on TV and such, even though we knew that God wants us to delight in Him, and for Himself to be our comfort when we get home at night. We shouldn’t long for beer or video games, book knowledge, or other idols to make our lives worth living. We live in a neighborhood full of heathens, some of whom come to our door, and we often couldn’t seem to be motivated to go out and share God’s love with them. We concluded that we didn’t love God, because if we did, we would be full of His Spirit and we would be unstoppable.

We prayed together and we asked God to do whatever was required to grow love for Him in us.

Now that these tumors have manifested themselves and been diagnosed as inoperable and unstoppable, we are relieved to know that we run to Jesus in hard times like these and wish to be identified with Him still.  Moreover, I have had some sweet and wonderful times in God’s presence.  Previously, I couldn’t get myself to apply myself to reading the Bible.  Last week (I think) I planned to read the Bible and then watch television.  What actually happened was that I became carried away by the Bible and read for 70 minutes and never got around to watching television!  Recently, I have found that I have an unusually large number of things to say during prayer times as well.

I remarked to Amber last week (I think) that if God were to take all of the tumors and cancer far away from my body, I would probably revert to my old ways.  I hoped out loud that God would come up with a way to keep me without killing me.  Amber told me that children would probably do the job.  So, if God heals my body and destroys the tumors within me, our plan is for me and Amber to become parents.

Amber and I have also been having a wonderful time praying for all of your requests and hearing your praises.  I had a wonderful time playing praises to Jesus on my mother’s bass guitar this past Monday.  Please continue to join us in praising God and asking Him to grant me a long and enjoyable life on the earth, during which things go well for me.

Allegedly Impending Death Part #3

February 9, 2015

I had a wonderful time singing worship songs to Jesus and talking about my hopes that God will use and remove the tumors that are inside of me while visiting Tacoma Christian Reformed Church this morning. I don’t think that I have ever had so many perfect strangers tell me that they have been in prayer for me.  Tacoma Christian Reformed Church is the church that my new wife attending during her growing up years, and which her family still attends.  Amber and I have been enjoying our visits with lots of different people.

The outline of my five minute speech is included below:

Joshua and Amber at Tacoma Christian Reformed Church on 2015-02-08

What is going on?

  • Joshua Has had cancer since 2011. Joshua has used chemo therapy and enjoyed four (4) surgeries.
  • Joshua married Amber on August 9, 2014, thinking that all of his struggles with cancer were behind him.
  • Joshua had the most involved and most recent surgery in October of last year. The surgeon was not entirely successful in removing all traces of the tumor.
  • Some of the remaining tumor cells have multiplied and grown a tumor that is so large and involved in Joshua’s body that surgeons are unwilling to attempt to remove it from Joshua’s body.
  • A medical professional has estimated that Joshua will live for less than 5.5 more months if he does nothing, and up to 11.5 more months if he uses chemo therapy.
  • Joshua and Amber are comfortable with not using chemo therapy for the time being.
  • Joshua has made a vow to throw a large party to share the good news of God’s miracle of healing soon after it occurs.

How can we pray?

  • Share about Amber’s prayers for her husband and Joshua’s dad’s miraculous healing
  • Pray for Joshua and Amber to use cancer and tumors and not waste them. This can be done by
    • Sharing their story, [with believers and with heathens] which inspires people to pray for them, bringing them into God’s presence more than normal.
    • Taking sin more seriously than cancer.
    • Seeking comfort in God and not hope of healing
    • See John Pipers small book called, Don’t Waste Your Cancer.
  • Pray for things to go well with Joshua and Amber and for them to get to enjoy a long life on the earth as God has promised those who honor their parents.
  • Praying for Amber and Joshua to get to become parents
  • Praying for Joshua and Amber’s life goals to become biblical, i.e. to do fruitful labor for Christ.

Allegedly Impending Death Part #2

February 1, 2015

Last night I was thinking of Psalm 116 and how God can be glorified by the fulfillment of vows in the presence of other Christians, and I think that I came up with a vow that is very appropriate to my condition.  I have already taken it.  I have pasted the vow text below:


Joshua Horky’s vow witnessed by Schuyler Horky and Amber Horky at [address] Bremerton, WA 98337:

Father in Heaven, cancer and tumors are inside of my body and the best oncologists have no hope for my recovery and no hope for my life continuing beyond January of 2016.  If you will heal my body and remove all tumors and cancer therefrom so that no tumors can be found on CT scans and no cancer is indicated by blood markers or other medical science, I will throw a party as soon as can be reasonably executed for the purpose of sharing and rejoicing in your miraculous work in me.  I will invite my neighbors and doctors, and in keeping with Psalm 116, I will invite Christians from several church congregations.

I thought of this idea last night and I have discussed it with several people.  The making of this vow was witnessed by my wife as well as by my brother Schuyler.  My wife and I have many ideas for the party and plan to spend several thousand dollars.  If you would like to pledge to contribute to the fulfillment of this vow, please contact me and I will add your name to a database to use at the appropriate time.